Wow, I can't believe I haven't been on here since January. Things are a little tighter at work so I can't go on fun sites like this without being paranoid.

Life has improved greatly. I graduated with my Master's degree so my job feels more secure now. Hubby is having issues with his classes and I'm so tired of it I've told him to do whatever he wants, even if it means he joins the Air Force, like he wanted to do a year ago which prompted me to loose my mind last summer.

Glad that nightmare is over, though. Maybe someday I'll be brave and healed enough to write about it. My supervisor, who is really cool and my mom's age, says I should write about it like for a book. And not the erotic stuff . I feel like it would invade too much of other ppl's privacy and I wouldn't feel ok about it unless they said it was alright. But I'm not trying to associate with those ppl anymore. Burned a few bridges by going overboard on my weirdness... it most likely isn't worth it.

Anyways, now hubby and I are partially planning to have a bambino (well I ain't doing nothing to stop it). We'll see. My body feels all kinds of weird.
I'm smoking. It's almost been a year and I haven't been able to stop for more than 18 days. Wish I never would have started again but ran into some problems with my bff (like I hadn't talked to her in a few weeks), having differences of opinion at home, and still communicating with a friend I shouldn't have had. I broke down on my Saturday lunch break and bought a pack and it was heaven... well, for a bit. Now it's a little bit of Hell that I carry around with me. Like a past friend said I go out to give myself some cancer . Idk, it isn't the worst thing in the world but I will definitely need to quit if I get prego.

Oh gosh my head is confused. I go from one small obsession to another. A friend at work says I have "baby fever" and I'm not even 26. Guess, I'll leave it there before I overshare, which I am so apt to do.

Peace and Love everyone, and hopefully it won't be another 5-6 months before I check back. Tootles.

FF